My neighbor across the street is fighting the demon so many of us will have to fight in our lifetime. She has cancer, stage IV, and the outlook is not good, not good at all.
Once again I am on the sideline, and I stand there helpless as I watch someone fade away.
This happens more often when you get older. People around you disappear –some without any warning, some leave us step by step.
‘In Sickness and in health, until death do us apart,’ that’s a vow many of us take when we get married. I believe the same rule applies for friends and relatives.
I am not just a fair-weather friend; I am a friend for all kinds of weather -rain or shine. I have been there in good times, had tears running down my face from laughter, and now I am there with tears of sorrow.
Sometimes I feel like running, and I can’t even say for sure what I would be running away from. My own emotions I suppose, running away from the inevitable sounds tempting. I know I want to get away from suffering, that’s for sure.
Watching people fade away is hard, it eats at one’s soul. If I have one wish in my lifetime, then it would be that the suffering would stop. I wish we would be allowed to leave this planet with dignity on our own terms.
My neighbor is a nurse, she has seen it all, and she knows what is coming. Talking to her is different; there is no need to pretend. ‘It won’t be pretty,’ she said, and I sighed -we all did.
We should be allowed to go with our head held high. The fading away part is inhumane and unnecessary. It’s my life and my body. Shouldn’t it be my right to choose how I want to die, if I have a fatal disease?
I don’t care what god or gods people believe in, but telling me that it is GODS WILL when people suffer is actually very arrogant. What about my beliefs or nonbeliefs? They don’t count? How come?
I think we all should have a say in our life. So, go and suffer if you feel like that’s the right thing to do, but don’t force others to do the same. It’s as simple as that.
The difference between god and doctors is that god doesn’t pretend to be a doctor. Think about it?