Wisdom of a clown…

 

As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth.

Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY“.

As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody as I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this person was me.

Today I call it “RESPECT“.

As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life, and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow.

Today I call it “Maturity“.

As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance, I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens at the exactly right moment, so I could be calm.

Today I call it “SELF-CONFIDENCE“.

As I began to love myself I quit steeling my own time, and I stopped designing huge projects for the future. Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in my own rhythm.

Today I call it “SIMPLICITY“.

As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for my health – food, people, things, situations, and everything the drew me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude a healthy egoism.

Today I know it is “LOVE OF ONESELF“.

As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right, and ever since I was wrong less of the time.

Today I discovered that is “MODESTY“.

As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worry about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where EVERYTHING is happening.

Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it “FULFILLMENT“.

As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me and it can make me sick. But As I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally.

Today I call this connection “WISDOM OF THE HEART“.

We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing new worlds are born.

Today I know THAT IS “LIFE“!

Wise words from a man who I admired all my life, Mr. Charles Spencer Chaplin.  This was the speech he gave on his 70th birthday and even though some claim it was not written by him, there is really no indication that it wasn’t. As for me, I believe Charlie Chaplin wrote the speech himself, mainly because he was an original, he never had to copy anything or anybody – it was always the other way around…and still is!

I am 50, only 20 years younger than he was when he made this speech and I understand him well. I understand that with age comes something that I like to call self-awareness. Age doesn’t scare me, it’s the opposite…I love it and I love who I became. What a wonderful opportunity to reflect on my life, what a wonderful opportunity to smile at my past, wink at my mistakes and flirt with  my future. What a wonderful opportunity to change things that I can change. I love it, every aspect of it. The wrinkles around my eyes and the knowledge that comes with it.

As I began to love myself I freed myself of cigarettes…

and it was about time!