So, is this what I will have to do from now on? Sitting there, talking about my life, looking at my past like Meryl Streep in the movie Defending your life and being judged by hmmm, well by whom? Continue reading
I remember the time before my 40’s birthday…the big “4” had me thinking for a while. I didn’t really care for the “over-the-hill” felling at all. How could I be already 40 if I still feel like 20? Well, turning 40 is a milestone, but although gives you a taste of how you will feel when you turn 50. Continue reading
No man’s Land is: Land that is unoccupied or is under dispute between parties that leave it unoccupied due to fear or uncertainty. Continue reading
I tried to be a good girl, but there it was the whisper inside me, telling me “come on, why not nobody will know”. I listened and needless to say it never worked, I was always in trouble when I was a child. Continue reading
Very often I read from the “Journey to the Heart” and I find this entry very fitting for everybody who wants to overcome an addiction like smoking.
One week…OH my Gosh, I haven’t smoked for 7 days…a whole week without cigarettes! Me..the long time smoker hasn’t touched a cigarette for one whole week. Believe it or not, my last pack is still in the freezer…..unopened and untouched!
I looked at my chalkboard and it made me smile; it showed a big 5! Wow almost a whole week smoke-free! Most of the time I am fine, but yesterday I had a craving and it was different. It hit me like a freight train and came from out of nowhere. It lasted a little bit longer as well -maybe 20 minutes, but still…..it didn’t kill me. I had more and more questions on my mind. I wanted to talk to other people like me; I wanted to find smokers like me who just quit …but where?